On the Other Side of Sinking In

I’ve had a bit more time to recover since sitting down and letting the team know I was backing out of the show. I’m still disappointed, but it’s a disappointment that it didn’t work out, rather than any feeling that I made the wrong decision. I can think about all of the other stuff going on in my life with more clarity now, and without feeling a sense of panic, or nearly as much uncertainty about how to manage it all. So I think I’m going to be okay with it.

I’m also using it to keep myself on the straight and narrow. If, three months from now, I’m 20+ pounds lighter and my diabetes is under control, I will feel like I kept my promise to myself and others to really focus on my health. Hell, even if I’ve done all the right things and it’s not working, I’ll still know that I used the space I’ve reserved for my health wisely.

I had an appointment with my nutritionist, and came in armed with my diet log, with all of the nutrition information included, as well as my workout information. She described me as a “star pupil”, which made me feel good. At heart, I’m Hermione Granger, and driven by the desire to be the valedictorian of everything. I’ve learned how to use this to it’s full advantage.

She made some suggestions, but said I was doing well, and that we’ll check my a1c and cholesterol in a few months to see how I’m doing. I might have to start checking my blood sugar if there’s not enough improvement. If I could do it without pricking myself, I’d already be checking it multiple times per day – I can’t help it, I love me some data. All the same, I hope to avoid it if I can.

I finished my Motherfucking Sharks sleep mask!

I’m pretty happy with how it turned out, considering it was my first attempt at free-motion quilting. I’m a little concerned with how I’m going to manage with larger things, but I’ll jump off that bridge when I get there.

You can find the pattern and tutorial here.

The only problem is that the elastic is a little too large, so the mask doesn’t fit me firmly. Fortunately,  I have a friend who loves sharks and has a slightly larger head – win! She gets a sleep mask, and my homemade thing gets a loving home. And I can make myself another one later.

Is it 2020 yet?